TALKING DOESN'T HURT

I always thought that I was the only one
Being choked alive by anxiety
But I wasn't
It wasn't just me

I never would've known
Had I not picked up the phone
and expressed the pressure I felt on my dome

But I did
So glad that I did
Cause that was when I found out
that Talking doesn't Hurt

In fact it made me feel better
I felt 10 pounds lighter
The clouds went away
The Sun shined so much brighter

And to think I almost kept it all inside
But I am so glad that I decided to swallow my pride
So if you ever feel sad, anxious, or depressed
Talk to the Most High For he knows what's best

THE POWER OF TALKING

For years I have been holding on to some pinned up anger. I had no idea of where it came from. I prayed and asked God to help me with it. His response..." You need to purge.....Let go of some things".

To Purge:
a. To free from impurities; purify.
b. To remove (impurities and other elements) by or as if by cleansing.

I wasn't sure of where to start, but I knew that God would lead me in the right direction. That night I went to Bible Study, and Pastor discussed the importance of letting go and forgiving people for the wrong that they have done. That's when the light bulb came on...I had to learn how to forgive some of the people from my past that hurt me. So I reflected on it. At first I felt somewhat confused because I thought that I had resolved any issues that I had with former relationships. Then the Holy Spirit spoke and told me to think deeper. I had to talk to some folks that were closer than any friend....my family.

So the first person that I talked to was my Dad. I had to tell him everything that I had been wanting to say since I was a young girl. I thought that he would not receive it well, but he welcomed my feelings, thoughts, words with complete understanding. I was in utter disbelief. I thought that talking to my Dad would hurt, not only me, but him too. But it didn't. This is the first proof that talking doesn't hurt...

The next person that I had to talk to was my mother. I had been pacing all day wondering what I should say. So again I had to talk to God. He let me know that he would be there with me. So I talked to my mom, cried a little, and thanked God for the opportunity to heal form past hurt, but also the opportunity to help my mom release some of the things that she was holiong on to for over 20 years.This is the second proof that talking doesn't hurt...

I can honestly say that now that I have purged, I feel so much happier. I had to be real with myself, and realize that talking does not hurt. You hurt not only yourself, but others. The first step in healing ladies and gentleman...is talking. Talk to the Most High.....and ask him to give you the strength and guidance to heal any hurt, depression, pain, etc. that you may be holding on to.

Why Black Men Silently Suffer

The Tittie Terrorist

You are the only insurgent that I won’t turn in
Threat level on red
As much as I want to sleep as close to my husband as I can
You find a way every night to make your way to our bed
The Tittie Terrorist
Dropping bombs in the huggies
Snatching meals from my boobies
Kicking daddy with your booties
The Tittie Terrorist
Every morning a new list of demands
Slapping daddy with your backhand
Pulling big sis by her hair strands
The Tittie Terrorist
Toughest, sweetest baby that I know
More and more everyday she grows
The cutest terrorist around….. I suppose

Lonely Times

In my lonely times I have to remind myself to stay focused
but it gets tough
I try so hard to remind myself that there is nothing outside of this house that could bring me more joy than my husband and kids
But sometimes my thoughts drift off to places that God forbids
So that's when I drop everything and take some time to myself
and commune with the one person that I need to talk to the most

Thank you GOD for my family
and thank you for my health
Thank you for my hands
and thank you for growth

Far from who I used to be
but the journey is not at an end
I am asking you God to forever be my friend

Keep me from drifting off this course that you've designed
Keep me in my right state of mind
Keep me grounded
Keep me humble
Give me wisdom
Give me peace
Give me knowledge

I am in your hands GOD

Amen

Mommy's day

Its Midnight
Hubby is sleep
Big Sis is at peace
And you have just finished your last feeding

Its 3 am
Hubby is still sleep
Big Sis is at peace
again you are Eating

Its 7 am
Hubby awakes and preparing for work
Big Sis is crying for more sleep
You are cozy in our bed

Its 10 am
Hubby is at work
Big Sis is at school
You are awake waiting to be fed

Its 12 noon
Hubby is home for lunch
Big sis should be napping at school
You are playing with toys and trying to sit up

Its 2:00
Hubby is back at work
Big sis is preparing to come home
You are getting another meal before we pick your sister up

Its 5:00
Hubby is home
Big Sis is helping in the kitchen
You are playing in your swing watching mommy cook

Its 8:00
Hubby is on stage
Big sis in the tub
You are in your swing giving me dirty looks

Its 10:00
Hubby is texting
Big Sis is fighting sleep
You are laying in my lap looking at me

If someone were to ask me what I do all day
I would have to say
Thanking God for a beautiful family
and Sanity

untitled

I love you more than you will ever know
And through my womb our love continues to grow
I never imagined I could feel this way
So full of love and joy each and every day
I know I tell you daily of how much you mean to me
But I wanted to take the time to put it in words that you could see

I love you my husband, my king, my boo
I appreciate the words you say and all the things that you do


Good Night

Quick poem for Sade

It was only three months ago when you arrived
I am in utter amazement of how fast you’ve grown before my eyes
You used to eat sleep and poop all day
But now you wake up at four a.m. just to play
Your daddy thinks that you love him more
But you and I both know that I am the one you adore
My favorite part of the day is anytime you eat
And how if I don’t feed you fast enough, you throw tantrums with your feet
I love how quickly you are learning how to use your hands
Pretty soon you will be rolling, crawling, and soon learning how to stand
Take your time little mama, don’t you grow too fast
Mommy wants to enjoy every moment while it last

Mommy's Laziness

Never should've signed up for these vaccinations
Should've given it more contemplation

Now I have to hold you down while you endure the pain
I wish I could tell you that this won't happen again

But according to the schools, it must be done
or else I will have to home school you until your 21

Maybe that would have been an option had I prepared myself in advanced
But I can be honest and admit that sometimes I am too lazy to even give it a chance

Maybe I will be ready by the time that you are 3
But If you are anything like mommy, you yearn to be active socially

Just know that mommy had to go through this too
and if I could take it all back, then I would just for you

Distractions

So many Distractions
Not enough time
So many paths to take
gotta make sure the one I'm on is mine

So many things being thrown my way
Gotta stay focused
gotta stay on track
Gotta shake off what the haters say

So many distractions
which will I ignore
Too many to choose
Can't take any of them anymore

Away with the books of faces
Away with the meaningless conversations
Away with the tweets and chatter
Getting back to the things that really matter

Away with the tv's
Away with the wack mc's
Away with the dvd's
Getting back to time with my family

The hubby,the Kids, the fam, my Spirit
My health, happiness, inner joy....
I refuse to let anyone steal it


So I bid farewell to all things that don't uplift
and if you don't feel me or can't get with it
Then the best thing for you to do is keep walking...catch my drift?