Friday, February 19, 2010

TALKING DOESN'T HURT

I always thought that I was the only one
Being choked alive by anxiety
But I wasn't
It wasn't just me

I never would've known
Had I not picked up the phone
and expressed the pressure I felt on my dome

But I did
So glad that I did
Cause that was when I found out
that Talking doesn't Hurt

In fact it made me feel better
I felt 10 pounds lighter
The clouds went away
The Sun shined so much brighter

And to think I almost kept it all inside
But I am so glad that I decided to swallow my pride
So if you ever feel sad, anxious, or depressed
Talk to the Most High For he knows what's best

Monday, February 15, 2010

THE POWER OF TALKING

For years I have been holding on to some pinned up anger. I had no idea of where it came from. I prayed and asked God to help me with it. His response..." You need to purge.....Let go of some things".

To Purge:
a. To free from impurities; purify.
b. To remove (impurities and other elements) by or as if by cleansing.


I wasn't sure of where to start, but I knew that God would lead me in the right direction. That night I went to Bible Study, and Pastor discussed the importance of letting go and forgiving people for the wrong that they have done. That's when the light bulb came on...I had to learn how to forgive some of the people from my past that hurt me. So I reflected on it. At first I felt somewhat confused because I thought that I had resolved any issues that I had with former relationships. Then the Holy Spirit spoke and told me to think deeper. I had to talk to some folks that were closer than any friend....my family.

So the first person that I talked to was my Dad. I had to tell him everything that I had been wanting to say since I was a young girl. I thought that he would not receive it well, but he welcomed my feelings, thoughts, words with complete understanding. I was in utter disbelief. I thought that talking to my Dad would hurt, not only me, but him too. But it didn't. This is the first proof that talking doesn't hurt...

The next person that I had to talk to was my mother. I had been pacing all day wondering what I should say. So again I had to talk to God. He let me know that he would be there with me. So I talked to my mom, cried a little, and thanked God for the opportunity to heal form past hurt, but also the opportunity to help my mom release some of the things that she was holiong on to for over 20 years.This is the second proof that talking doesn't hurt...

I can honestly say that now that I have purged, I feel so much happier. I had to be real with myself, and realize that talking does not hurt. You hurt not only yourself, but others. The first step in healing ladies and gentleman...is talking. Talk to the Most High.....and ask him to give you the strength and guidance to heal any hurt, depression, pain, etc. that you may be holding on to.

Monday, February 1, 2010

The Tittie Terrorist

You are the only insurgent that I won’t turn in
Threat level on red
As much as I want to sleep as close to my husband as I can
You find a way every night to make your way to our bed
The Tittie Terrorist
Dropping bombs in the huggies
Snatching meals from my boobies
Kicking daddy with your booties
The Tittie Terrorist
Every morning a new list of demands
Slapping daddy with your backhand
Pulling big sis by her hair strands
The Tittie Terrorist
Toughest, sweetest baby that I know
More and more everyday she grows
The cutest terrorist around….. I suppose